Mortatality only began to haunt me in a way I could see when I was older, when I had someone to care about and I loved my mother again. Until I was 23, I was at best unaware of the desperate war I’d waged against it: I expected my mom to follow my dad into… Continue reading on dad and dying
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The Jordan that Makes Me Beat
Heading home in the winter and in my veins there is a singing in the same familiarity that confuses you when your dog knows the car is almost home; I never understood that instinctual compass that made them whine and wiggle and physically not be able to contain their joy at where they’re headed until… Continue reading The Jordan that Makes Me Beat
NSA perks
whenever you’re paranoid about being watched, now it’s true!But think of the possibilities: now when you tell that hilarious joke or find that perfect comeback and no one else is with you, it still didn’t get wasted! Some sweet bored “security” agent somewhere is hopefully chuckling passively about your witty humor, and that’s something the Truman in all… Continue reading NSA perks
On bullying and the loneliness
If there was one thing I could share with everyone, ironically, it would be the perfect simplicity of our sameness. Our common bond of being human, of sometimes being afraid, of sometimes being awful, of always wanting love.Those we ostracize and leave out, sometimes thoughtlessly and sometimes with malice or fear, even those on the… Continue reading On bullying and the loneliness
On people-ing
I know I’m not the only one who feels like we as a species might have woken up late one day and missed our grand finale; or at least our intermission. We seem to be long overdue for a greatness that I’m really afraid we don’t know how to be capable of anymore. I have all… Continue reading On people-ing
on growth
You are a shape with ever changing edges; You always think you know it all when you have learned your corners, But remember that you are organic and you grow and swell with heat and knowledge. You only know until you grow; And then you must learn again.
Charlie Countryman on MOVIE MONDAY!
MY FIRST MOVIE MONDAY! Very excited to start discussing movies and inviting conversation and interviews on movie taste, directing styles, genres and their characteristics, and other endless topics connected to the film industry. Think of this more as a movie recommendation and critique than a movie review, as my personal philosophy is to always find… Continue reading Charlie Countryman on MOVIE MONDAY!
In another attempt to become a more organized or disciplined writer, I am going to start practicing my reviewing skills! Movie Monday will commence here next week, with a movie review and some movie recommendations! As the weeks pass, I’ll put up a permanent page to aggregate all the reviews. Also, feel free to suggest your… Continue reading
On not sleeping
Before the sun rises the loneliness eats me, in a nostalgic, delicious kind of way. I assume it was the jet lag in Sri Lanka that will forever resonate with me, that pre-dawn quiet of knowing absolutely nothing about where you are, what you will do, who you even are.I remember waking up that first… Continue reading On not sleeping
On interrupting
When I was 11 my mother moved us to Jordan for a year, where she enrolled me in private school and allowed my teachers to fail me as long as they also helped me learn to read and write in Arabic. She spent every spare moment trying to enrich my experience in a place I… Continue reading On interrupting
Garbanzo Bae 